Coming to the Truth of my BEing, my Soul, my very FLOW OF LIFE, has required time, space and silence.

This rising is what comes naturally to the Soul and is what you were born to BE.

Today I thought it important to mention that in order to live our way to something, we also must live our way through something.

One year, as I was waiting in line with my daughter to get ice cream, I heard one of the moms say, as she was scooping the precious balls of cream, “You get what you get so don’t throw a fit.”

I know that is true for you. A light worker taught me this phrase close to 20 years ago. I was at the beginning of having a very different experience as a human and it was helpful at the time.

No matter what, however, leaving a container is not easy.

I was born to be Ellen. And as Ellen, I happen to be your mom. I will be your mom as only I, Ellen, can be.

This awareness did not feel good. In the blink of an eye I saw how I had been self-abandoning in order to feel loved, seen and worthy.

At first it was like Satan rolled up on his motorcycle. But not too many moments later I recognized the absurdity of this very Catholic idea.

Self-Renewal is resuming being your Self after interruption.

And this awareness IS LIFE. When I become aware of what is happening, of what I am doing from this stubborn habit and pattern, it makes way for the light.

The reality is this: No one is YOU. You were born as a distinct expression.

Is judgment or joy the engine of your life?

Everyone gets to eat their stale chips.

The experience was an opportunity, an invitation, for me and my husband (and our kids) to turn within each of ourselves and root even more deeply into our own presence.

…we all literally ARE CREATIVE and it is with this creative life-force that we make our life.

And what I have discovered is that this nurturing energy that I sought - is not separate from me. It is not outside of me. It IS ME. I AM THAT.

I began to see how fear drove my need for my husband to be an idea instead of who he actually was.

Me, living as the life-force that I am is the crux of self-responsibility and self-integrity.

But I’ve come to realize (see with REAL EYES) that I can trust the truth of my own being-that the only place I could find Me was within Me.