FLOW OF LIFE

6/19/2025

Arriving home yesterday morning from errands, I met my 19-year-old son coming down the stairs. He was dressed for work. He was running a bit behind.

Seeing him, I realized that not only was his working that day not in my consciousness, it was not in my energetic field.

I was in awe. Of mySelf. I was not carrying this for him. By carrying I mean I did not feel energetically responsible for his life-force in my body. In that space in time, my son’s life-force was his. And my life-force was mine.

I have been actively aware of this phenomenon and working toward this space for some time. And I know what it is like when the opposite is true.

When I try and take responsibility for someone else’s life-force, be it my son or daughter, spouse, friend, sibling or sports team, it does not feel good - my body feels tense, anxious, tight, not flowing.

My life-force (flow of my life) is on literal HOLD.

And here’s the thing, it also messes with the other person’s flow of life. Our life force/flow of life is our true Confidence. By trying to take responsibility for my son or anyone else, I’m sending a message: you can’t do this on your own. Even if this is not verbal, energetically, people can feel this. It affects their confidence.

There have been several times over the course of the last 5-7 years where my son has stopped me and said: You are treating me like a baby. In other words: Back off mama.

Yesterday we had an intense storm. When my son returned from work he told me that there were two birds outside on the walk. One he thought had died and the other was too stunned to move, just staring.

Thirty minutes later the birds were gone. In their own sovereignty, their life-force came back online and they were able to move on their own.

Me trying to take responsibility for others’ lives does not work. Me living as the life-force that I am is the crux of self-responsibility and self-integrity.

I’m here for it.

xoxoxo