HEAVEN IS AVAILABLE NOW

5/15/2025

I was in the Cancun airport about 12 years ago, standing in line to get on a plane home and this realization hit me: I’d been carrying a belief that who I am, is bad.

This wasn’t an I had done something bad belief. This was I am bad for who I am at my core belief. There’s a name for this and it's name is shame.

I came to see that in order to combat this hidden belief, I had unwittingly been living my life to BE GOOD. In other words, not be bad.

I was out there striving to be ALLLLL the good things… the good mother, the good friend, the good wife, the good daughter, the good student, the good Catholic, the good citizen, the good employee, the good neighbor and on and on.

But living in avoidance of something is a dead way to live. Even if it is an avoidance of being bad. It was hijacking my essence, killing my aliveness.

So…..when I saw that day that I had a belief I was bad, it sucked! But it was also the beginning of freedom.

I began to face the pain and hurt of this belief. And slowly, over time and with a continual facing and not avoiding, I began to release this untruth.

In the movie The Truman Show, Truman Burbank, played by Jim Carrey, has spent his entire life from birth on a movie set as the main character in a show - the Truman Show - a seemingly perfect utopia. One day, Truman (True-Man) gets wind of what’s up and busts out of the movie set to pursue the real adventure of his life.

I loved and LOVE this! It has been my distinct honor and work to forego the artificial world I was living in - artificial because it was based on the lie that is shame - and venture into the unknown in pursuit of my truth and aliveness - the essence of ME.

Living according to right vs. wrong, good vs. bad, positive vs. negative are just ideas and is subjective at best.

At worst, it is a recipe for a life of perpetual judgement, projection and polarity. There is no greater hell.

But here’s the thing and it’s the ab-SOUL-ute BEST news: Heaven is available through you. Heaven is here right now.

And this is the crux of it. It is possible to step off the seemingly perpetual spinning wheel, to step away from the madness. Step by Step …

Until what’s left is purely YOU. YOU, creating as the pure Possibility that YOU ARE. Every breath and in every single moment.

xoxoxo